Thank you all for your replies. I figured the roll-coaster was part of it all..the pre treatment anxiety…it is reassuring to know that I am not the only one. I do have a sense of humour and am able to have a laugh at myself. Once the anxiety passes. Humour can really help me get through anything. And I am noticing that the uncertainty doesn’t last very long.
I am encouraged by all your experiences and am heartened by your openness to share and help each other.
Yesterday I met with my specialist and nurse at the liver clinic. My specialist confirmed that he & nurse will be monitoring me through the treatment and I feel totally supported by them. I had my first base line bloods done and I feel reassured and confident and ready to take on the next few months. I should be on treatment this time next week. Sooo…just waiting.

Thanks Archie will have a look.

Hello
thought I would make a post…just to keep me in practice..this is all new to me posting on forums and its a little strange, however, I don’t want to feel isolated and need to have contact with other people with HCV who are going through treatment. I had contact with FixHepC buyers club yesterday and my drugs are in the process of testing and I should receive them by Monday next week.

Thats great news…although I have gone from a sense of empowerment to feeling apprehensive and I am fearful of the side effects of the drugs although there is a slim chance that I may not have any. I am 55 kilos and have a very ‘clean diet’ and am not sure how my body will process the drugs. I see this all, the roller coaster, as part of the process, of pre-treatment…. the relief, sense of empowerment, positivity, fear, uncertainty, not wanting to feel sick, anymore, wanting to clear the virus, having energy and a cure. On and On it goes.
These are the things that are going through my mind as I am waiting. I have no doubt that I have made the best decision for myself to purchase the drugs and wouldn’t change it. I just want to express the mixed emotions of pre treatment.

Hi Joy
I was reading your first post and my story is similar. I was definite about not going on Interferon and got sick of waiting for New Drugs on PBS. I saw Greg Jefferies name mentioned on ABC and contacted him but was still waiting for ‘new drugs’. I feel very empowered now I have made this decision and you posts are encouraging as so far you have no side effects. I look forward to hearing about your journey..