Genotype 1a, 1.6 million viral load. F0 metavair/fibrosure score. Prescribed Harvoni, insurance won't cover it. That's not exactly the whole story. I was diagnosed 10 years ago and I have been living in fear ever since. I have, or rather had, a hands on job that caused me to cut my hands several times a day. Racked with anxiety and fear that I am infecting others. Became a shut in and cut all ties to friends and family. Haven't been intimate with anyone in over 10 years. I definitely think I am better dead so at least loved ones will stop worrying. I can't bear it any longer. November of last year I thought I was getting Harvoni, but insurance denied it. I was told by my doctor that they would assist me in obtaining the meds and they had a 90% success rate in bargaining with the drug companies. Started planning my life on the outside. After the second denial it was apparent I wasn't going to get them.
Today I was told I should accept I probably won't get Harvoni, ever. My doctor put the idea in my head that a new treatment is coming out, and maybe I will get that. I can't go through this again. I have some funds, and can borrow some more from family.
I want to live, but I don't see the point. With all due respect, I don't need kind words, I need a blueprint. Instructions to follow. I will go to India, Bangladesh or anywhere. Looking at trips to Australia but I don't think I can afford it. P,ease help. Thank you.